By Kim, Myung-Im ("Mary Ann")
"Do you have the time?"
"Sure, it is ten to eleven."
"I appreciate it."
"Don't mention it."
The student who asked me the time disappeared to the other side of the
street from where I was standing for a while. I had an appointment with
my classmate in front of the gym near my home. After she went away, I looked
at my blue watch again. It looked particularly light blue in the bright
sunlight. I like the color blue so much. Whenever I buy something special,
I choose something blue. How pretty it is! If someone asks me why I love
it very much, I want to tell them that it always reminds me of my best
friend. I do not know exactly when I started to like that color. I guess,
however, it was when I was a middle school student.
When I saw Young Ae from a distance in our classroom for the first time,
she was sitting with her arms folded, looking at a book. It was time to
start the first class of the spring term. I thought she had a brilliant,
thin, white face, and remarkably black eyebrows. She also had a few freckles,
and some small pimples with a pail complexion. She looked so cute, but
like a boy because of them. In her sweet visage, there was delicacy, vivaciousness
and grace. She did nothing but look at her book, without chattering like
other students.
When I looked at Young Ae, I could perceive that she really liked the color
blue. Everything that she had was blue: her pencil case, notebook, backpack,
shoes, and so one. Especially, I found that she had a very pretty blue
watch. She was not at all tall, but she was not diminutive. I thought she
had a singular western air. She was at once wild and pure. At that time,
I was very shy and had a negative character. So I really wanted to talk
to her about anything, but I could not. I looked at Young Ae for a while.
She suddenly stood up and stepped slowly towards me, smiling at me.
"Why have you been looking at me for a long time?"
"Ah... Um... I just want to talk to you."
"Then, why don't you say anything to me?"
"Ah... I tried to... but...."
"Ha, ha, maybe you want me to be your friend."
"Sure, would you...?"
We were soon to be close. We very often walked along the stream near the
school after class. Young Ae was always dressed in a white cotton blouse
and a short black skirt. She loved blue, to collect leaves, and to sing
a song like an opera singer. So far as I remember, I have never met a friend
who was as comfortable and kind as she was. She was eminently pure. Her
eyes were clear, and she looked honest. She especially liked taking a walk
with me anywhere I wanted to go.
Young Ae always prayed to God whenever she ate and whatever she did. Sometimes
she told me about Jesus Christ, but I gave no heed to her. One day she
asked me to go to the church where she went every Sunday. I told her that
I had no idea about religion, so I did not want to go there. We still had
a good relationship even though I did not listen to her tell me about the
church. We studied very hard and helped each other. She was a really studious
friend. She liked math, but I did not. I liked English so much, but she
did not. We did all of our work as a pair. She was particularly amiable
and was universally loved by everyone. It was on account of her good character.
She gave me many lessons and impressions. She always told the truth and
was honest. I liked it when she gave me courage, as I did not know what
to do when I was in trouble.
It was a very lovely and wonderful day in October when we went on our last
picnic together. Young Ae and I decided to go on a picnic to Yang Pyong
with four other students in our class. We thought that might be the last
picnic when we were middle school students, because we had to take the
high school entrance test two months from that day. Nobody else was there
where we pitched our tent except my friends and I. It was very strange
not to find some people though it was a busy season for many travelers.
There were not only many trees near our tent but also lots of fish in the
river. Across the river, there were some wooden houses. I saw a particularly
big green tree near our tent. I also remember looking at the river that
was singularly blue and clear. We enjoyed a campfire and had a very wonderful
time the first night. We were very happy and had sweet dreams.
The next morning, Young Ae wanted to go fishing. I went into the river
first, and she followed me to catch fish with a net. While I was going
into the river, I saw an old woman crossing the bridge carrying a very
heavy basket of corn. I wanted to help her carry it to the other side.
So I gave the net that I was carrying to Young Ae. She continued to wade
into the river without me. As soon as I came out of the water, I turned
toward her to wave. Suddenly I felt something was wrong. I could not see
her anywhere. I cried out very loudly and shouted toward her. But there
was no response. Nobody could help her. We could just look into the very
deep, cold, blue river. That was the only thing we could do. Suddenly I
felt very sad and burst into tears. I ran in tears toward the river that
she was in. I continued to call her name many times, "Young Ae... Young
Ae...." I really just wanted to hear her voice, even something like "Help
me... help me...." But I could not hear her voice at all.
That was the last time I saw Young Ae alive. She returned to me as a cold
dead body. I could not say anything to her when I saw her. I just hugged
her cold body and said to her for the last time, "Good-bye, my precious
friend, good-bye." She looked prettier, but still did not smile. I wanted
her to call my name again like when she was alive. I also hoped that it
was just dream. But it was a real accident, and I realized I had to accept
it. She left the blue river for Heaven alone like that. I remember her
mother crying very sadly near the river. She could not stand her sadness,
but she prayed to God for her cute, pretty and smart daughter's soul.
After Young Ae's funeral, her mother asked me to go to the church her lovely
daughter had gone to. I willingly answered that I wanted to be a Christian
like her daughter, even though I did not understand about God yet. I went
to the church every Sunday for a long time for her and for my best friend.
One day, I found I was crying loudly when the minister preached about the
gospel. I knew that Jesus Christ died because of my sin and found out that
Jesus Christ always watches and loves me. I always felt that my friend's
death was my fault. I thought she died instead of me, because I gave her
the net. If I did not give her the net, maybe I might have died.
After I realized the truth of the gospel, I did not feel that I was a sinner
any more. The only reason I did not feel sad about Young Ae was that I
knew God loves and forgives everyone. I could understand why she loved
God so much. I think her righteousness, purity and love was from God. Her
tenderness and kindness, too. I believe she was a real Christian. I could
get a new life through her death. Her death gave me a good chance to know
God. She also taught me about what the best way to live is. The river in
Yang Pyong is always clear and blue like the innocent soul of my best friend.