When I was in
the third grade in high school, I was tired from studying, and I was very
sensitive about things that happened around me, so I was all nerves at
home and I didn't listen to what my parents said to me. However, my parents
understood me and tried to make me to feel comfortable. Especially, although
my mother was tired because she was running a Korean restaurant, she came
to my room everyday, asked me what happened, and listened to what I was
concerned about. However, I could not understand her actions at that time,
so I regarded that as useless things.
Unfortunately,
I failed the university entrance examination in 1992 in spite of my parents'
care. My father was disappointed with the result of the examination, so
he wanted me to go and find a job instead of preparing for the university
examination again. I was very sad and I wanted to give up everything. At
that time, my father did not talk to me, but my mother came to my room
and talked about my future. She said, "Don't be disappointed. What are
you going to do?"
At that time,
I had lost confidence in myself, so I said to my mother feebly, "Mom, I
don't know what I have to do. Maybe I should find other things I can do."
She said, "You
are so young. You just lost one chance in your whole life. I believe
in you. You can try it again. If you give up this time, you may lose everything."
I was worried
about my father's reaction, so I said, "What does my father say, Mom?"
"Don't worry
about your dad. He'll let you do whatever you want."
Though she
said only a few words to me, it built up my self-confidence, and she let
me know what I had to do. As a result, I went to Dae-il Academy and did
my best. While I was studying to try to enter the university again, my
mother listened to what problems I had and made me feel relaxed by telling
me jokes. Finally, I passed the university entrance examination. If I had
not had her advice and love, I doubt that I would have passed the exam.
All people
have a special feeling for their mothers. All people need to be taken care
of in their lives. Their mothers usually take responsibility for that.
When they have problems, their mothers listen to what problems they have,
put themselves in their children's shoes, and try to solve those problems.
However, most people forget their mother's help easily, and people often
can't understand their mother's love until they marry and have a baby of
their own, or until their mothers die.
In my case,
when I failed the university entrance exam and when I was in the military,
I had difficulty in living. Without my mother, I might have been in trouble.
I had forgotten my mother's help for a long time. However, since I left
the army, my thinking about my mother has changed a little, and I could
have a chance to think about my mother more deeply. I have not done anything
for my mother, yet. I have just thought about myself. From now on, I will
try to think about the place of my mother in my life, and I will listen
to what she is concerned about and what she wants. I think these may not
be hard things to do, if I compare these things with my mother's actions.