An Index in My Life

By Kim Hyun Jin ("Jina")

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        If someone foresees your future, do you believe it? If someone makes a prophesy about your character, job, or life partner, how do you feel? In my experience I believe prophecy about me, and surely I don't regret having done such a thing.
        I met her when I was twenty-one years old. I had a stomachache, so I went to the hospital where I met a well-known physician in Seoul. Even though she had given birth to twins, she was trim and slender in figure, so she gave a good impression. It just seemed like she was always doing something nice for someone. She had a large practice and she treated hopeless cases. Also she said, "People may one day be in want," so she treated poor people free of charge. She won their respect.
        I found out that I had tuberculosis. For six days, I received treatment. The doctor injected medicine into my hips. When a nurse pricked my hips with a needle, I twisted my face in pain. Even now, when I see a needle, my face twists in pain by itself. After two months, I recovered very quickly. One day, when I saw the doctor, she stared into my face for a few minutes.
        She said slowly, "Gain various experiences because you are introspective and pure in heart. Bitter experiences or pleasant experiences are both good. Smile your heart out and go to meet your friends. Don't strain your nerves. Please set your heart at ease. Life is 'play'."
        I nodded my head, and her remarks sank deep into my mind. Then she said, "Marry as soon as you can. Otherwise, you will not be blessed with children."
        I thought, "I', twenty-one years old. When?" At first I couldn't believe my fortune, but she was famous for judging a person's character by their the face.
        I'm always very grateful for her advice. I'm now in a good state of health and I have regular health checkups. That is, I changed from having an introspective nature to being an extrovert. I travel and shop and go to the movies with my friends. And I smiled my grief away. I want to help the poor with a miserable condition. I plan to volunteer in a institution for the aged or a home for orphans. And I have great confidence in myself. Her advise is my index.


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