I have a cousin who is the same age as I am. We graduated from the same elementary and middle schools together. He is short, but is strong and has a good character. I spent much time with him in childhood. When we studied in school, I did not receive influence from him, but after we graduated from high school, I was influenced in many ways by him, such as fashion, character, etc. Before I graduated from high school, I did not compare myself with him.
        When we both failed the entrance exam to university, we went to a ski resort so that we could refresh ourselves. We had a good time there, and we decided to take the exam again the next year. On the freeway returning home, we heard from his mother by telephone that he was admitted to a university. I told him congratulations, but I was a little gloomy. After that time, I felt that I was  different from him. While he was going to a university and having a good time, I started to study for the entrance exam once more. After a year, he went to the military, and I entered Daejin University in 1996. But I didn't have a good time during my university life. The next year, I also went to the military, and I returned to the university in 1999. He has stopped studying at his university, and he will leave for America to study English.
        Frankly, I envy everything about him. I think that I have always felt inferior to him. Therefore I wish to stop comparing myself with him because his life is his own and my life is my own. Of course, I still can't evade his shadow. But now he will go to America to study English for a year. While I can't meet him, I will live in my own way.