I Hated My English Teacher,
But I Understand Him Now

By Song Hyun-suk


        I met him in middle school English class. He was my first English teacher and my homeroom teacher. I was a curious boy who paid attention to English when I was an elementary school student. So I joined an English conversation club, and I also studied English very hard on my own. Even though it was a long time ago, I still remember what I learned from the English songs and how I practiced English.
        My destiny was changed when I met the middle school English teacher. He only ordered us to memorize English words and grammar. It was too boring and terrible, and then he gave a lot of tests to us. I took a test every week, and I was punished by the teacher if I didn't have a good result. I was afraid of that. Usually, he gave a lot of punishment to us; in other words, he drove me crazy. Therefore, I became a bad student who really hated my English teacher and English. It made terrible problems because I wasted a lot of time avoiding English class, and I didn't study English. At the time, if I thought about English, I felt disgusted. Generally, my English grade was getting lower. I only thought about how I could avoid the time. Usually, I  ran away from English class with my friends who didn't like English either. Sometimes we did bad things like breaking the English teacher's car or being absent from school. Eventually, I studied English for entering a university.
        My major was English, but I still didn't like English because I thought that English only existed for examinations. I realized that is not true when I went to New Zealand to study English for seven months. When I was a freshman, I thought my major was not  my choice, but only a way to make a living in the future, so I decided to go to another country which used English. At first , I really wanted to go to America, but it was too hard for me to go there because of money and the visa. I gave up going to America soon and looked for another country. Most of all, I concentrated on Koreans who went there for studying and then I thought about money.
        Eventually, I found New Zealand and went alone. I learned real English in New Zealand for surviving. If I could not speak English, I could not do anything. Even if I was sick, I could not see a doctor. When I stayed in New Zealand, I had to study English. I memorized many words for buying food, and I practiced a lot of expressions for asking direction. I thought English was some kind of monster, but it was really just a tool for living, like Korean. When I studied English in New Zealand, I was helped by some of the words and grammar I learned from my middle school English teacher. I didn't expect that, but I used them and I gave thanks to my teacher. I repent a lot for my faults and what I did to my English teacher now.
        Now, I am a student and also an English teacher. I was a trouble maker, and that was a good experience for teaching English because I can understand my students thinking well, but it is too difficult. Sometimes I lose my temper because my students don't want to memorize English words, but every time that happens I think about my middle school teacher. I can't say that he was wrong or right, but I know he always loved us. I would like to talk about what is the easiest way to learn English. There is no easy way. We have to spend a lot of time to study English and also we can find more interesting ways. I think both of them require a lot of time which is the only way to speak English very well.

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